My Kingdom

Well today has been a productive day. I woke up at 11 and I worked out for half an hour. I'm going to start swimming on thursday in the morning. Well than I did a couple of other things than I sat down and started to work on myspace. The thingy is  http://myspace.com/1whogotaway" title="http://myspace.com/1whogotaway" target="_blank"http://myspace.com/1whogotawa... . visit it and see pic of me and see some of my crazy friends.... lol... well thats  pretty much it... mucho love!

 

-pinkiey

Romantic Woman

¤Love is everything it's cracked up to be... It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.

¤There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

¤When you love someone, all your saved-ep wishes start coming out.

¤Passion is the quickest to develope, and the quickest to fade. Intimacy developed more slowly, and commitment more gradually still.

 

 

Well this summer I will be working out...I'm very excited because well... I like to work out...It gives me such a good feeling... I mean.. Building muscle...hmm.. and afterwards I feel really attractive... So at the end of summer I hope to be 5 pounds lighter and a few inches smaller. I will build muscle and loose very little fat... lol what can I say thats how it is...

-pinkiey

Honesly wear a size 10/11(for pants), I have a size 34(D) bust, I wear S/M/L shirts(deepends on the style) and M/L bottoms. Here is the deal... I'M NOT FAT!!! I wear a size 11 because I'm Cuban and I have wide hips and a big butt (heheh... I said butt... sorry had too) so yes that is why I wear a size 11/L bottm. But as you can tell from my bust (34D) I have a small upper body. Yes I will admit the fact that I don't have a perect stomach.. and im ok with that.

Now the funny thing is that some people think im fat because I wear a size 11. This guys (how shall reman nameless) rejected me becaue I was "too fat" dude I'm not even fat. I'm in my healthy weight range and I don't have that much body fat.

So is being a size 3 beautiful now a days? I mean I would never be a size 3, not even is had no fat... So why do all these girls starve themselves to be something that isn't even that attractive... I mean girls who are really skinny look sick... maybe im saying this because i have a feminin body and i find really thin and "board like" woman unattractive...

So... I think that healthy woman are beautiful. It doesn't matter is you have a feminen build or and athletic build.. as long as your healthy its ok!

Ok I have always known this and for some reason I still don't understadn it maybe because im not a man myself. Most guys are affraid of smart women... mind you I am basing this on highschool guys (more like boys). Here is the thing the guys who date me aren't in school any of my classes. My first boyfriend was, but he and I never interacted(he sat in the front and I sat in the back). Why are guys afraid of smart woman? Are they affraid they won't be able to keep up? Or are they affraid that the woman will figure out their game and dump them? But then why go after the dumb ones? I mean why would a guy want to date a girl who doesn't know what the square root of 9 is? Easy lay maybe? Then its understandable... but i see these guys have long trem relationship with girls with zero common sense... someone explain to me why this happens?

The other side to this is the good looking girls with personalities and smarts are left single... and im going to say it... im like that and im single... i have a friend with benefitrs and im not ashamed of it either. I'm not looking for a relationship, but its not like I wear a shirt that says "I don't want you to talk to me".. so what is going on with the world? seriousely someone tell me cause i can't figure it out...

-pinkiey

Ok I have always known this and for some reason I still don't understadn it maybe because im not a man myself. Most guys are affraid of smart women... mind you I am basing this on highschool guys (more like boys). Here is the thing the guys who date me aren't in school any of my classes. My first boyfriend was, but he and I never interacted(he sat in the front and I sat in the back). Why are guys afraid of smart woman? Are they affraid they won't be able to keep up? Or are they affraid that the woman will figure out their game and dump them? But then why go after the dumb ones? I mean why would a guy want to date a girl who doesn't know what the square root of 9 is? Easy lay maybe? Then its understandable... but i see these guys have long trem relationship with girls with zero common sense... someone explain to me why this happens?

The other side to this is the good looking girls with personalities and smarts are left single... and im going to say it... im like that and im single... i have a friend with benefitrs and im not ashamed of it either. I'm not looking for a relationship, but its not like I wear a shirt that says "I don't want you to talk to me".. so what is going on with the world? seriousely someone tell me cause i can't figure it out...

-pinkiey

I feel extremly crappy. I need companion ship and the guy who was giving it to me is ignoring my calls. Why is this going on? I mean it was going so well. We aren't dating but we are "budies"(if you catch my drift) and it was going so well until he told me that he wanted to bang one of my friends. Honestly I wouldn't have carred if it had been any other person but the fact that it was her really upset me.. and well i was in a vulnrable state when he said it so it just maid it worse. So I'm trying to play it off cool and i give him her number and he sends her text mssgs inviting her over to a party theat he didn't even tell me about...my thought was what the fuck! Thankfully my freind is a real friend and she would never do anything with him but he still wanted to try (even thought i told him it wasn't going to happen)... so i took her to the party i was  invited to. Im so fucking stupid for doing that! But i wanted to prove to him that i wasn't jelouse... more importantly i wanted to prove to myself that i wasn't jelouse... i was wrong... i was extremly jelouse... and i don't know why because im not threatened by her cause i know nothing will happen but still... i aws damn jelouse and i called him 2 days ago so that we could hang-out and he never showed up he gave me a reason why he didn't call me back but still it made me feel a bit upset that he didn't call me back... oh well wahat can i do... so i call him yesterday to hang out today(actually its more than hanging out) but he never showed up and i called him and nothing.. so i don't know what to do is he ignoring me? i don't even know how i feel... that is why im writting it out writting lets me vent so i feel better afterwards.. wand then when i read it i can figure out what to do so i will come back to  thins tomorrow and come up with something to do ... but for right now i need your advice.. what should i do? i really don't even knwo what i feel i don't know if i want to punch something or if i to cry... i thin ki should just cry and let it out... considering the fact that its healthier than turning anguish into anger... (i want to be a sex therapist but syou still need to take phsycology classes)

so helpd me out please...

-pinkeiy

Well sense summer has started and I'm making a little of extra money (no not from my job but from my tutoring) so I have decide (well actually i need to do this...) to re-do my make-up collection... yea i cleaned it out yesterday. The funny thing is that i no longer have that much make up anymore... i had alot but after I cleaned out all the old make-up and the make-up that I don't use i have about 2 eyeshadows and no liner and 1 lip-gloss and 2 lip balms... yea thats not that  much considering that fact that i used to have a whole drawer full of make-up... oh well its all good. I'm going for the whole innocent look this year (well next year for school). I'm going to buy ltos of polo shirts and im going to buy a white jacket... cause well here is the big thing... im still losing weight and im just dropping sizes so i don't really have much clothes that fits me the right way. But its a good thing to have to spend my money that way! So yea hopefully when I go to miami I will get some money so i can get more clothes and make-up. Oh yea.. this is funny.. I worked out about how much its going to cost me for my new make-up(this is just for the eye-shadows) about $73. Well you know what its my money and I want this so yea!.. But yea im smart so i set up a registry at Sephora.com (if you want more info send me messege*sp?*) so that my family and friends can get me things... (heheh.. i'm so smart)

 

-pinkiey

I feel great! Ive been really busy lately so i haven't had much time to get online! so im feeling great! school is cool and everything else is fine... ive been working out lately so i look great im still a long way from getting to wear i wanna be but im getting there... i want to model this fall so thankfully i have all summer to workout and get in perfect shape...

-Love

Me!

Today is the first day of my new life. I have changed my hair color and I am extremly excited! I feel like myself again (the red hair wasn't doing it for me...) I have started eating healthy again and I'm very happy about this. I have started working out and I will be a lifeguard over the summer. I'm making a promise to myself to keep up this blog.

well is really going on. im just here at home relaxing and getting over this horrible flu! I have had it for about 4 weeks but its going away now... i feel like a pill junky. go figure... the pills are making me really hungry do ive gained about 5 pounds from eating too much. dang pills. so starting tomorrow i will be working out everday to lose those 5 pouinds then after that im going to continue to work out to lose about 20 more pounds... but its cool. i like my body but i just dont like it right now. sense i used to be in gymnast i was very lean. but now im no longer in gymnastics and my body isn't as well... perfect as it used to be. well g2g later!

Well today has been a normal day... i woke up at 8:45 am to get my house ready to be cleaned... im the one who cleans my house so i wanted to get done early so that i could go out with my friend who is a marine.... well he is goig to be anyways... im really bored and im just talking to him on the phone  right now... hes going to come a pick me up later ... hes leaving on monday so im going to enhoy my time with him while i can... im a lil worried aout the math test that i toke on friday... i am praying to God that i got a good grade on it... oh i got my report card on firday and i got straight A's and i am very excited! my b-day is in 13 days... im getting money then im going to go to victoria's secret to get some new stuff .. yea i went to theior online store and they have alot of new stuff.... you should got there... [link] hope i spelled it right... well enyways... my leg is somewhat asleep... so im in a little pain... oh i blowdried my hair this morning... well my mom did it for my... but she did a crummy job so i had to straighten it myself... but w/e i guess it being blow dried helped so it looks pretty nice now... i have it up cause it  makes me pretty hott.... so yea... im really bored... i want to re-dao my site... any ideas...???!!???!?!?!?!?! i want to make it really cool again... cause i haven't been on in a really long time so i have to put it back to its pimping days...

holla bvack ya'll

mucho love
-pinkiey!

hey everyone... i don't know about this one... ive been thinking a lot about this lately... what would be better.... love, with all the pain it brings or uncommited sex?

 

help me out

mucho love
-pinkiey

You told me you loved me
you told me you'd stay
then why are you walking
so quickly away

You toke my heart
you toke my soul
you left me crying
at the foot of the door

Many year have past
sense you left me that way
im much better and have one thing to say

Thanking for everything
thank you for making me cry
thank you for giving me the life
I would have left behind

-Pinkiey©

well there is this very good looking guy at my school... he is a senior and very sweet... dont know too much about him... so here is the question... she i approach(sp?) him myself? or should i sit around and do nothing?

 

help me out!

mucho love
-Pinkiey

I have decided to change... for some reason the life i have been leading isnt leading me anywhere...i need to work harder at school and become a better sister... i have to take better care of my body , mind, soul, and heart... it sound kinda story book but its true.. ive been eating too much junk food and im becomming unhealthy again... :( i haven't been doing all of my homewrok and im not leting my self learn and ask questions... :( i have to just become a better person... i need to tell the truth more... not that i lie... i just need to tell more of the whole truth rather then a beat around the bush version... and finally my heart... i have to go back to the way i used to be... im going to make those guys work hard just to be able to hold my hand... i began to trust men when i was with my boyfriend in 8th grade... then i came here.. that changed then i found my ex Cj... yea hes my es... not even two months... his loose (sp?)... he can't even get too close to me... i wont let him... so im single.. don't really care much about it... yea i like haveing a guy but its not that much of a good thing... too many rumors and trouble... (thank god i don't care what ppl think!) so i came up with all of this yesterday (sunday) i was cleaning my house and my room and i was talking with my grandma about her life and all her boyfriedns (god she had more then 20!!!) and i realized that im a wonderful girl... im smart, pretty, sweet, etc (ive been told this!.. boy are they wrong... im jking jking...) and like my grandma says "better then you... not even the grond that is going to swallow you" and thats what im going to live by now...

 

mucho love

-Pinkiey &hearts

Ok well I'm single again... Yea not too happy about that but can I do... well the thing is that I need ya'lls opinion on this... What do you think I should do? Should I stay friends with him even though one of the reasons why we broke up was because he didn't like me as much anymore.... Or should I stay away from him? he didn't tell me that he wanted to break up he told me that he neede space... and then lied about the fact that the reason why we broke up had nothing to do with me...

what should I do? Please help me out...

mucho love
-pinkiey

well im in the process of getting by site up and running again. I have been away for a while.. yes i know a little upsetting i know... but im back... i noticed that there are a lot of new tbloggers... i just wanted to say welcome.... and I'm here to help... send me an e-amil if you need help (goddesspinkiey15@yahoo.com)

-pinkiey

ok well... school is really sucking right now.. even though im doing good the people there are being really stupid and bitchy! my boyfriend broke up with my because his friends thought i was obsesed with him and i think thats bs! its none of there buisness what i do or how i am around him... besides im dating him not hs friends... grrr it made me so bad and i finally got it out of him... but w/e its his loose...welll the other thing is that im doing ok in school i wish i was doing better  but i find my self procrastinating a lot... i hate it when i do that but i just don't feel like doing homework when i get home... i just so damn tired... but w/e i better get used to it caus eim gog to start working soon so im going to have to stop procrastinating .. cause i need to keep up my grades if not i cant keep by job...so yea... nothing else really... oh yea.. im starting to get back in shape!! gotta work out gotta look good!!!

 

mucho love

-pinkiey©

( )( )
(*-*) < stupid humans > (u u) im going to eat you
(")(") all * laughs evily*

Name : Mr. Bunny
Worlds Destroyed : 7
People Eaten : 169

1) like to buy coloring books and color them in: i lay down on the floor on my tummy ofcourse and i start to color the book in... ill be doing that for hours at a time... i love to color and paint so i try to do it as often as i can...
2) i sleep with a teddy bear: i never went through that phase when i was a child so im going through it now... i find it hard to fall asleep if im not holding onto Mr.Snuggles... hes a pink Ty with white striped and a rainbow colored ribon for his collar... he was a gift...
3)i go to all the little kids sites to play games: ie neopets.com barbie.com chibifriends.com playhousedisney.com and so on and so forth... im not ashamed...i think that the games ar lots of fun and they are really entertaining... im amused easily but i don't satay amused very long... so the games grab my attetnion and i don't just go when im bored i actually visit them well neopets.com everyday... its a fun site wheere what i think doesn't matter for a change and i can have a stress free hour or so...
4) i talk to my teddy a.k.a. Mr.Snuggles: yes i confess i do... when there are to many things going on and i don't feel like writting i talk to him.. he is a very good listener... and he helps me relax... i talk to him everynight before i go to bed soo i can unwind and clear my mind a little so i can have a peacful night of sleep
5) i keep a diary: yea i confess to that too... i write when ever anything happens... good or bad... it helps me see how i change over the course of time that i have it... besides Mr.Snuggles gets tiered oh hearing my problems... heheheh
6) i watch cartoon: yes i watch cartoons actually i watched them all the time.. i watch adult swim everyday on cartoonnet work and then on saturdays i watch it until about hmmm 3 am cause its anime and i like anime ( not an obsession there cartoons helllo!!) but i watch kim possible by myself and im not going to use the xcuss that i saw it cause i have a baby sister well i do have a baby sister but i watch them by mayself cause she talks to much so i don't get pay attention to whats going on in the cartoon...
7) i like to ask people to do things for me: im independent but sometimes i just want people to do things for me cause i feel alzy... ie tie my shoes for me... wich i tell people do at school for me alot get me water... not often but soemtimes... and i like it when people feed me i know it sounds strange but i like it....

and thats basically it... im still a kid at heart so im enjoying my teen years cause once i have kids i won't be able to lay on the floor and just color...

love,
-pinkiey♥

leave me your sign and ill messege you your horoscope... and if you want to know what is is you
a) long term love
b)sexual symmetry
c)platonic pal
d) fab fling
just tell me an ill messege you all the things or if you want to know wich sign would have what type of connection leave the name of the sign......
love
-pinkiey ♥


m Aries

n Taurus

o Gemini

p Cancer

q Leo

r Virgo

s Libra

t Scorpio

u Sagittarius

v Capricorn

w Aquarius

x Pisces

1) im going to hang around the pool and get a nice tan..
2) im going to strart sending letters to colleges in florida and other place
3) im going to pop in on some old friends back in florida
4) im going to work on my voice sense i have choir nexrt year.... [[ workshop on August 16]]
5) i am going to laugh like crazy.. my bestfriend and i laugh a lot when we are together and neighter of us is actually funny but my other friends are and im going to spend some time with them...
6) and of course play it cool cause im a []D. []. []v[]. []D. ( hahahha )
this is one of the things that i wont be doing much of and none of this either...

well single life is cool... im having fun being single

i actually thought that my beautiful site was gone thats a load of my mind.... i worked to hard on this for it to disapper now...

well not much has happened sense the last time i wrote

im leaving for florida June 7th and coming home July 13th i am going to have an awsome time because im staying at my ex's house but he won't be ther but its ok... i don't bind im actually thankful... anyways im going to get an awsome tan

oh yea i remembered ive been working out for the last month and i have gotten thinner... i lost about and inch around my waste and half an inch around each of my thighs and my stomach is getting alot flatter....

so ill post later tonight... new poems and stuff soming soon...

love,
-pinkiey ♥