My Kingdom

Well today has been a productive day. I woke up at 11 and I worked out for half an hour. I'm going to start swimming on thursday in the morning. Well than I did a couple of other things than I sat down and started to work on myspace. The thingy is  http://myspace.com/1whogotaway" title="http://myspace.com/1whogotaway" target="_blank"http://myspace.com/1whogotawa... . visit it and see pic of me and see some of my crazy friends.... lol... well thats  pretty much it... mucho love!

 

-pinkiey

Romantic Woman

¤Love is everything it's cracked up to be... It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.

¤There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

¤When you love someone, all your saved-ep wishes start coming out.

¤Passion is the quickest to develope, and the quickest to fade. Intimacy developed more slowly, and commitment more gradually still.

 

 

Well this summer I will be working out...I'm very excited because well... I like to work out...It gives me such a good feeling... I mean.. Building muscle...hmm.. and afterwards I feel really attractive... So at the end of summer I hope to be 5 pounds lighter and a few inches smaller. I will build muscle and loose very little fat... lol what can I say thats how it is...

-pinkiey

Honesly wear a size 10/11(for pants), I have a size 34(D) bust, I wear S/M/L shirts(deepends on the style) and M/L bottoms. Here is the deal... I'M NOT FAT!!! I wear a size 11 because I'm Cuban and I have wide hips and a big butt (heheh... I said butt... sorry had too) so yes that is why I wear a size 11/L bottm. But as you can tell from my bust (34D) I have a small upper body. Yes I will admit the fact that I don't have a perect stomach.. and im ok with that.

Now the funny thing is that some people think im fat because I wear a size 11. This guys (how shall reman nameless) rejected me becaue I was "too fat" dude I'm not even fat. I'm in my healthy weight range and I don't have that much body fat.

So is being a size 3 beautiful now a days? I mean I would never be a size 3, not even is had no fat... So why do all these girls starve themselves to be something that isn't even that attractive... I mean girls who are really skinny look sick... maybe im saying this because i have a feminin body and i find really thin and "board like" woman unattractive...

So... I think that healthy woman are beautiful. It doesn't matter is you have a feminen build or and athletic build.. as long as your healthy its ok!

Ok I have always known this and for some reason I still don't understadn it maybe because im not a man myself. Most guys are affraid of smart women... mind you I am basing this on highschool guys (more like boys). Here is the thing the guys who date me aren't in school any of my classes. My first boyfriend was, but he and I never interacted(he sat in the front and I sat in the back). Why are guys afraid of smart woman? Are they affraid they won't be able to keep up? Or are they affraid that the woman will figure out their game and dump them? But then why go after the dumb ones? I mean why would a guy want to date a girl who doesn't know what the square root of 9 is? Easy lay maybe? Then its understandable... but i see these guys have long trem relationship with girls with zero common sense... someone explain to me why this happens?

The other side to this is the good looking girls with personalities and smarts are left single... and im going to say it... im like that and im single... i have a friend with benefitrs and im not ashamed of it either. I'm not looking for a relationship, but its not like I wear a shirt that says "I don't want you to talk to me".. so what is going on with the world? seriousely someone tell me cause i can't figure it out...

-pinkiey

Ok I have always known this and for some reason I still don't understadn it maybe because im not a man myself. Most guys are affraid of smart women... mind you I am basing this on highschool guys (more like boys). Here is the thing the guys who date me aren't in school any of my classes. My first boyfriend was, but he and I never interacted(he sat in the front and I sat in the back). Why are guys afraid of smart woman? Are they affraid they won't be able to keep up? Or are they affraid that the woman will figure out their game and dump them? But then why go after the dumb ones? I mean why would a guy want to date a girl who doesn't know what the square root of 9 is? Easy lay maybe? Then its understandable... but i see these guys have long trem relationship with girls with zero common sense... someone explain to me why this happens?

The other side to this is the good looking girls with personalities and smarts are left single... and im going to say it... im like that and im single... i have a friend with benefitrs and im not ashamed of it either. I'm not looking for a relationship, but its not like I wear a shirt that says "I don't want you to talk to me".. so what is going on with the world? seriousely someone tell me cause i can't figure it out...

-pinkiey

I feel extremly crappy. I need companion ship and the guy who was giving it to me is ignoring my calls. Why is this going on? I mean it was going so well. We aren't dating but we are "budies"(if you catch my drift) and it was going so well until he told me that he wanted to bang one of my friends. Honestly I wouldn't have carred if it had been any other person but the fact that it was her really upset me.. and well i was in a vulnrable state when he said it so it just maid it worse. So I'm trying to play it off cool and i give him her number and he sends her text mssgs inviting her over to a party theat he didn't even tell me about...my thought was what the fuck! Thankfully my freind is a real friend and she would never do anything with him but he still wanted to try (even thought i told him it wasn't going to happen)... so i took her to the party i was  invited to. Im so fucking stupid for doing that! But i wanted to prove to him that i wasn't jelouse... more importantly i wanted to prove to myself that i wasn't jelouse... i was wrong... i was extremly jelouse... and i don't know why because im not threatened by her cause i know nothing will happen but still... i aws damn jelouse and i called him 2 days ago so that we could hang-out and he never showed up he gave me a reason why he didn't call me back but still it made me feel a bit upset that he didn't call me back... oh well wahat can i do... so i call him yesterday to hang out today(actually its more than hanging out) but he never showed up and i called him and nothing.. so i don't know what to do is he ignoring me? i don't even know how i feel... that is why im writting it out writting lets me vent so i feel better afterwards.. wand then when i read it i can figure out what to do so i will come back to  thins tomorrow and come up with something to do ... but for right now i need your advice.. what should i do? i really don't even knwo what i feel i don't know if i want to punch something or if i to cry... i thin ki should just cry and let it out... considering the fact that its healthier than turning anguish into anger... (i want to be a sex therapist but syou still need to take phsycology classes)

so helpd me out please...

-pinkeiy

Well sense summer has started and I'm making a little of extra money (no not from my job but from my tutoring) so I have decide (well actually i need to do this...) to re-do my make-up collection... yea i cleaned it out yesterday. The funny thing is that i no longer have that much make up anymore... i had alot but after I cleaned out all the old make-up and the make-up that I don't use i have about 2 eyeshadows and no liner and 1 lip-gloss and 2 lip balms... yea thats not that  much considering that fact that i used to have a whole drawer full of make-up... oh well its all good. I'm going for the whole innocent look this year (well next year for school). I'm going to buy ltos of polo shirts and im going to buy a white jacket... cause well here is the big thing... im still losing weight and im just dropping sizes so i don't really have much clothes that fits me the right way. But its a good thing to have to spend my money that way! So yea hopefully when I go to miami I will get some money so i can get more clothes and make-up. Oh yea.. this is funny.. I worked out about how much its going to cost me for my new make-up(this is just for the eye-shadows) about $73. Well you know what its my money and I want this so yea!.. But yea im smart so i set up a registry at Sephora.com (if you want more info send me messege*sp?*) so that my family and friends can get me things... (heheh.. i'm so smart)

 

-pinkiey